Saturday, May 7, 2011



this is your day so i made a special letter for you!!! 

Having a mother like you while growing up was the greatest gift and biggest advantage anyone could ever have given me
Thank you for shaping me into a person who I like and am proud to be. 
Thank you letting us believe that we could be whoever we wanted to be, do whatever we wanted to do,
Thank you for reading all the books that I read, thank you for learning about a world that must be so foreign to you.
Thank you for holding my hand when im weak
Thank you for always having hope for me when I didn’t have for myself.

Thank you for telling me not to give up when I said I couldn’t do it any more.
Thank you for never giving up on me when I went through that dark period, 
when I shut every one out of my life. When loving me must have been like trying to hold a cactus.
Thank you for loving me through all of my rejections of help and love
Thank you for never taking sides, for being there for me and to my brothers

Thank you for driving all the way from home to take me to school
Thank you, for every thing you have done for me, 
thank you for every thing you have said, 
and for all the times when you said nothing and just listened

Thank you for taking me to hospital and sitting with me through all those transfers and test,
thank you for sitting there in the chair, either entertaining me with stories from home or just sitting quietly
thanks you for crying with me when i feel like giving up!

thanks you mom for everything for raising me well with god's love together with my brothers 
who i am today is bcoz of you and dad and i forever thanking you for all of this, for all you've done
im so proud of you mom
remember when you told me not to give up bcoz you're always there holding me!
sa long as you're there with me i know i can get throught this!
i will forever holding you mom and i will never let go until to ask me to


Monday, October 11, 2010

NOBODY (for my bestfriend MITCHIE)

If nobody smiled and nobody cares and nobody helped us along. If every moment looked after itself and good thing always went to the strong, If nobody cared just a little about you and nobody cared about me and we stood alone in the battle of life what a dreary old world this would be Live is sweet, just because of the friend we have made the thing which in common we share, we want to live on, not because of ourselves, but because the people who care... It is doing and giving for somebody else on which all of life's splendor depends... They joy of this world, when you've summed it all up is found in the making of FRIENDS....LOVE YOU MITCHIE MY BFF

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

PARAMORE "the only exception" ON GLEE

Lea Michele redeems herself with her 3rd solo track and the only non-britney track on lastweek episode of glee with "PARAMORE THE ONLY EXCEPTION" Her voice sound fantastic on this rock ballad. She shows vocal vulnebility, which allow the audience to connect emotionaly with the song as well as her character

We've known from day 1 that RACHEL controlling, and after the disastrous ultimatum, trying to get FINN to quit the football team when he just rejoined she tempt him with QUINN whom he very firmly turns down RACHEL is a little incesure obviously when it comes to dating

RACHEL apologize to FINN with PARAMORE "the only exception" and makes us all feel warm and sniffly and not just because LEA MICHELE is a champion singer-crier but because its a PARAMORE song! THE ONLY EXCEPTION its not really an episode of GLEE unless RACHEL deliver a self aggrandizing closing performance, NOW IS IT! admittedly though LEA MICHELE killed it on this one and when FINN took her hand in the hallway GIRLS and GAYS everywhere were jealous lmao!

So it's just a perfect note to end a showny GLEE episode with a really sweet and emotional moment, bringing home the heart of what the show is about with a non-britney song! Even though "THE ONLY EXCEPTION" went along well with RACHEL BERRY character's storyline in the episode, I do think another britney track could have been place to round out the tribute episode.

Saturday, September 11, 2010

my father "my everything"

hi dad, i know you can't read this.. i just wanna tell you something, i know we talk alot.. like we talk about everything, bout stuffs, God, school, assignments you even ask me about boys stuffs, but one thing we never talked bout you being a father, being so called dad, since this is your day "YOUR BIRTHDAY" i'l make a note for the most important man in my life, DAD your not just a doctor nor a church preacher.. who i am today its all because of you and mom, you raised me well with God's love, your love is unfailling, your my head lifter, i know your so strict your way to decipline me, thank you for being my doctor, my bestfriend, my mentor, my driver, sometimes my teacher you even do my assigment, my everything, And i thank god for using you to become a great father, a great church preacher who's someday i can look up to.. Dad, i know i dont always say this to you.. but in my heart your always be the the first on my list.. I LOVE YOU DADDY HAPPY BIRTHDAY

Friday, September 10, 2010

my story behind paramore "THE ONLY EXCEPTION"

my self review of PARAMORE single "THE ONLY EXCEPTION" ever since GLEE SPOILER comes that finchel a.k.a "FINN and RACHEL" of GLEE doing cover of this song in one of the upcoming episodes of GLEE SEASON 2 i cant help but wondering if finchel will give justice to this song or it might turn out to be not good as PARAMORE but i do trust of the talent of LEA MICHELE and CORY MONTIETH.. and i know its going to be awesome like the original

The 3rd single from the NO. 1 album "BRAND NEW EYES" "THE ONLY EXCEPTION" bring about a completely different feel to the bands previous two single taken from the album... Where the "IGNORANCE" and "BRING BY BORING BRICK" take a more rocky approach "THE ONLY EXCEPTION" is a deeply personal acoustic ballad with beautiful vocal from PARAMORE lead singer "HAYLEY WILLIAMS" The ballad gives an unapologetic glimpse into the inner working of what was happening in my head the song touches on how her parents relationship has influenced the way she deal with and think about love

"THE ONLY EXCEPTION" is a song of hope "ON THE VIDEO" at the beginning hayley's sworn off love and doesn't believe it exist! DAMN! those parental break-ups haha... But the frequent refrain is to the lover in the video that he's the exception to that rule.. The video features HAYLEY's walking to the various scenes her life including the clever speed dating where she dates all scenes from the video is rejected her and the letter on the bed hayley lies on she write "sorry" means she wouldn't believe in something existing..

Honestly is a tough word to live up to the field of moderm popular song, the every act of singing your feeling instead of expressing them in the way your body most naturally would.. Crying, laughing, shouting etc. It's a layer of self-consciousness, a bit like that scene in GLEE when FINN decides that the best way to tell QUINN's parents that they're about to become a grandparent is to sing a song about it, to them, at the dinner table, and yet on the surface, singing is all about expressing raw emotion..

HAYLEY WILLIAMS is getting better at this with every single PARAMORE release and its one of the most honest song sounding so far for me.. Everything about it rings is true from the bit of disillusionment of childhood when you realise your parents are just people too, to the bits about disillusionment of adulthood, when you realise that sometimes bad things happen to good people, And clearest and truest of all, the realization that people who are good for you are few and far between and you need to cherish those people and most of all ensure that they know about it..

Extra praise the arrangement of the video which allow HAYLEY to emote clearly and build up to a nice climatic power ballad ending... Its about as honest as music get, FRANKLY and as much is pretty damn near impossible to find fault with...


Sunday, August 29, 2010

"peace in summer"

I cant find a better title for my essay/blog.. this is how i spent my summer vacation! we all know summer is gone and we already start school, and fall is coming.. Summer is my favorite season i enjoy my summer every year.. coz i get to spend most of my time with my family, i dont have to waste my time doing my homeworks, paper works, etc. But what i really enjoyed this summer is...

First seeing my CHURCH MINISTRY friends almost everyday able to shared them what happened in our days having a simple thought about word of GOD! able to shared some words of encouragement.. its a nice feeling coz we only do this every summer... "put God on top of everything and he will guide you all the way"

Second my dad and i went to NYC omg! NEW YORK CITY is such a nice place we went to some restaurant and the foods are awesome.. Central park is so amazing you cant never go wrong with NYC its so stunning people are so busy and we saw some nice views everywhere, im inlove with the beauty of NEW YORK i will definitely come back there...

Third the social networking TWITTER yeah! If you guys dont know im a twitter addict i spend most of my hours using twitter.. i spend half of day using my phone, using my laptop just to tweet and tweet.. Its a therapy for me whenever i talk to my twitter buddies its a sort of relief.. Im having so much fun talking to them.. in twitter i find peace, i can able to express whats on my mind.. and everytime my favorite people tweet il freak out haha.. and sometimes i get a replied from them.. i know it might sound weird but this people create a huge impact in my life.. i dont know them personally i only saw those artist in their icon like LEA MICHELE, PARAMORE, GLEE, CORY MONTIETH, HAYLEY WILLIAMS etc. but i know behind those profile photos this people are amazing.. this people are beautiful inside and out and their love about their favorites and how they expresses it in a simple tweets sometimes really hit me, i really feel their love towards their idols.. Were became friends we shared thing about our idols how amazing they are and how we love them..

Sometimes we even shared some of our problems at home, love and family.. I love the fact that this people can shared their problems to the people they dont even know.. we build trust and respect with each other simply bcoz we have something in common we have same taste when it comes to our favorites...

There some people in twitter i truly admired! they're like my besties in twitter world i learned alot from them 1. Mia @MiaIsAStar my dear big sister she's one of the most awesome person in twitter she never afraid to tweets whats on her mind, whether it is good or bad.. I feel like i found a sister, sister that i cant never have.. we have different views when it comes to belief coz shes a buddism but religion is never a matter in our friendship i love her dearly and no one can ever change that.. when the time im upset with my bro. coz hes getting married mia is the only one who listen to me, who give me advice, who understand me.. Shes never failed to make me smile.. i know glee will end, or maybe one day we leave twitter.. but 1 thing for sure our friendship will forever treasured..

My summer it wasn't fun as you are.. no beach, no mounting climbing no anything! I dont have to go somewhere to enjoyed my summer coz the simple things like CHURCH activities and TWITTER makes my summer memorable i learned alot of things that money cant buy and i will remember it for the rest of life..

(I actually cut it coz its too long, its my assingment in english essay)

Friday, August 20, 2010


We convince ourselves that life will be better after we graduate, having a good job then another, then we are frustrated that it wasnt good enough.. After that we're have a family to deal with we will certainly be happy when you see them in wealth and in nice place.. We tell ourselves that our life is complete when we have a beautiful house, nicest car are able to go on a nice vacation when we retire.... The truth is there's NO BETTER TIME TO BE HAPPY THAN RIGHT NOW if not now when??? Your life will always filled with challenges its best to admit this to yourself and decide to be happy anyway "FOR A LONG TIME IT HAD SEEMED TO ME THAT LIFE HAS ABOUT TO BEGIN IN REAL LIFE BUT THERE WAS ALWAYS SOME OBSTACLE IN THE WAY, SOMETHING TO BE GOTTEN THROUGH FIRST, UNFINISHED BUSINESS, TIME STILL BE SERVED, A DEPT TO BE PAID THEN LIFE WOULD BEGIN AT LAST IT DAWNED ON ME THAT THIS OBSTACLE WERE MY LIFE" this perspective helped me to see that there is no way to happiness, HAPPINESS is the way so treasure every moment that you have and treasure it more bcoz you shared it with someone special.. Special enough to spend your time and remember that time waits for no one.... So stop waiting until you finish school, until you go back to school, until you lose 10 pounds, until you gain pounds, until you have kids, until your kids leave the house, until you start to work, until you get married, until weekends, until you get a new car, until you got old, until you die.... To decide that theres no better time than right now to be happy... HAPPINESS is a journey, not a destination.. So WORK like you dont need money LOVE like you've never been hurt DANCE like no one watching.. BE HAPPY